I’ve always loved a good drink. Red wine and tequila are my jam.
But sometimes in life, you have to realize when things aren’t serving you anymore and have to sever the connection cord.
At the end of 2021, I decided to go all-in on the alcohol free life.
No booze. Nada. Zip. Ziltch.
It sucked at first – I was drinking wine daily before I quit.
But after watching a YouTube video (see below) and listening to a podcast with Justin Kan about how he did it, quitting started to get easier. I downloaded the Kin Habits app to track my daily streak and just kept the streak going.
I made it 151 days. The longest I’ve ever been alcohol free since my teens.
It was a trip. I was stoked on myself.
But then something happened that made me go off the wagon.
My dad died.
It wasn’t the death of my father that drove me to drink, but it was everyone around me wanting me to drink with them as part of the grieving process.
I caved. It was too hard to say no. Plus, I was sad AF.
I wasn’t worried about getting off the wagon though. Things were good. Drinking was fun and nice again. It was until it wasn’t.
After 60 days, I caught myself starting to drink more than I was before I quit.
I was using it to cover up my depression, sadness, and using it as a way to escape emotions.
That’s never a good thing.
Reflecting on my life, alcohol has always played a role in my daily existence. It’s hard to unlearn the drinking habit though. I grew up in Las Vegas. Drinking started at 14 and just never really ended. It’s a lifestyle change that is a weird one to get used to.
So here I am, back on the wagon.
8 days as of this writing.
Will I ever drink again? I don’t think so. I don’t think I want to.
I’ll miss red wine and tequila. But the pros of not-drinking far outweigh the cons.
Booze free is better for my mind and soul. I should never forget that.